Changes in T minus 10, 9, 8...

Last Wednesday was just warm enough to ride with the windows down and not freeze to death. Aerosmith's "Crazy" was on the radio. I love this song and I always have. Since this song came out, I have always stopped to sing along when it comes on. So it made me wonder, do we change or do we just go through different motions?

Yeah, we make life changes all the time, but how much do we really change? How much of the changes we do are just because it's something we know we should do? I know I should exercise, but I don't like to. I know I should take vitamins, but I'm too lazy. And we all know that doughnuts taste better than broccoli. But no matter what, even at my lowest rock-bottom points, I still loved Aerosmith.

When people would comment and say "You've changed. You're not the same person." Really? Have I changed or am I just going thorough different motions? I didn't think I had changed. My whole life I have always had the same opinions on key issues, always liked the same kind of jelly, always liked the same types of people. Every morning when I put on make-up, I turn on music and lip-sync to the mirror while I imagine a music video starring myself. I've done this since I was 15. So did I "change" or just go off the beaten path? I think that when people say, "You've changed" what they mean to say is, "You're not the cat lady I envisioned you to be."

People say having a baby changes you. True. Mostly. Do I finally love someone more than myself. Yes. Will it change the way people on the street see me? No. It does change the way I see toys. That's not a baton with sparkly tassels, that's a beating stick with sparkly shit that she will try to swallow. That's not an educational talking alphabet board, that's an obnoxiously loud, battery hungry brick that will be dropped on my toes. So yeah, a baby changes things.

But besides being a parent and going to war, do we ever really change? Marriage is borderline, in my opinion. When we are single we go out and do things that we're supposed to do when we're single. But why are we supposed to date everyone we see, go to clubs, and generally make an ass out of ourselves when we're single? I don't think you change when you get married, I think you wipe the sweat from your brow and breathe a sigh of relief that single life is over and you can finally start living with some dignity.

So what, in essence is a catalyst for real change? I'm talking a change from the core. I've been through a lot and made a lot of "changes" but I'm still the same person. I still love Aerosmith, making music videos, and I have a funny feeling I will always prefer a doughnut over broccoli.